Scammer Andreeva Anastasiya

Hi xxxxx! I have feeling that you have not received my letter.
I send you again my letter that I sent several days ago.
I hope you will receive it and will answer me.
I have two your e-mail addresses; therefore, I have decided to write
to both addresses, as I am not sure what address you prefer.
Anastasiya.

Here is my letter that I sent you but didn't get answer:

Hi xxxxx!
First of all I want to apologize for my delay with my answer. Please do
not be angry with me. Unfortunately I had no opportunity to write to you
sooner. I hope you remember me? I have written to you the short letter and
you have answered me. I wanted to answer at once to not keep you waiting
for my answer, but I got access to a computer only now. Please, forgive
me. I am very glad that you have answered to my letter. Thank you that you
have found time for answer. Unfortunately I cannot speak on the phone,
but I still hope we can write to each other and learn each other in
this way. Also maybe one day we will find a way to speak on the phone.
Probably first of all I should write the most important thing.
I hope and I think you are not very much afflicted that I live not in
your country (I think you already know about it). But I very much hope
that it does not frighten you, because I am the same lady like many
other ladies living in the different countries. I am the same person
with heart and soul. I very much am afraid that my nationality and my
residence will disappoint you and you will not write to me more, but at
the same time I sincerely hope that nationality and distinction of
cultures for you is not the most important things in a lady. And if
your interest is not limited by distance or borders, I really will be
very glad. Besides, in the near future I am going to travel to your country,
and who knows, maybe we would become the big friends or even more...
My country is Russia. Moscow is the capital of Russia. Now I live in
village of Kalinin. It's a small settlement, where live a few hundreds
inhabitants. Probably if you want to have the best understanding about
where I live, I should tell you that my village is located close to the
city - Shahty. It is a city located in Rostov Area - in a
southern part of the European Russia,near to such known cities as
Novoshahtinsk, Novocherkassk. In the childhood I dreamed to be a
translator of the English language. I dreamed to work with our
President to know all state and international secrets! (smile). But the
destiny has disposed differently. I think our president doesn't need my
services now because I am gynecologist, and I think that our president
would not allow me to examine him (smile)! I began to get education in
the comprehensive school with a medical bias. After ending school I
entered the Medical University.Now I work in a clinic. I work as an
gynecologist. I already said that my name is Anastasiya.
xxxxx, I promised to share with you my picture, I fulfils my promise
with worry and with pleasure. In addition to a picture I want to tell
that color of my hair is light-brown, though sometimes I like to change
color of hair. I hope you are not disappointed very much that I am a
light-brown, because I know that all men love more blondes? It is a
question!!! (smile). My height is 5 feet 6 inches. My weight is 120
pounds. And of course you should know that I am 30 years old. My
birthday is 01 February 1978. I have no children. I understand that all people
have various tastes and interests, but I sincerely hope that my picture
and my appearance will be pleasant for you. But if my appearance doesn't
conform to your tastes and interests, I will understand you, of course.
I the optimist at heart and it's often help me in my life. I already
adult woman; and I look at the life with a philosophical shade. But as
though I did not try to inspire myself that I absolutely happy woman, I
can't do it. I have fine lady friend, I have job and my apartment. But
there are things without which people cannot be happy. And for me it's
not material things. I have written to you the first and it means that
I am ready to share with you my thoughts. I am very glad and grateful
to you for that that you have answered me. Anyhow, I hope that you,
just as I, have interest in our dialogue, and I will wait your answer.
I sincerely think that there are no borders and distances for friendship.
In the end of my letter I want to ask you the most banal questions:
what music you like, what movies you prefer. These questions are really
interesting for me because I like American movies and American music
very much. I with pleasure will tell to you about it in my next letter
if you really want to learn more about me. Do you like your job, xxxxx?
Had you ever had experience in correspondence with a friend from other
country? Maybe you are more skilled in this than I am? If you do not
want to answer these questions, please do not answer. It is simply my
female curiosity. I will be very grateful to you also if you will send
me your pictures. I will be happy to have your pictures in the
computer. With the best regards. Anastasiya.


Hi xxxxx! Please, forgive me if I disturb you. Our Internet not
always works qualitatively and because of it I am not sure if my letter
has reached you. I still wait your answer very much. I do not know why
you have not answered me. Maybe you simply have no time. Maybe my
letter has not reached you. But if the reason because of which you
don't write me is my nationality, or my picture has not satisfied your
interest, I ask you to tell me about it because I still have hope to
correspond with you. Forgive me magnanimously if it looks like absence
of patience. I did not want to irritate you. Simply I am not sure if
you have received my letter. If you have not received my previous letter,
I can send him again.Sincerely. Anastasiya.

Hi xxxxx!
How your day? I hope you are glad to receive my letter because when
I have received your letter I really was glad. Many thanks. At once I want
to tell to you about my opportunities to write letters to you. I write
letters on my job because I have no the personal computer. The computer is
in an accounting department. Lady who works with a computer will allow me
to use a computer in my interests sometimes. It depends not from me,
unfortunately. I work from Monday till Friday. It is Russian standard.
Therefore I will not be able to write you and to receive your letters
Saturday and on Sunday. But sometimes I work Saturday and even Sunday.
In fact any pain hasn't schedules(smile). Therefore, maybe I will be able
to write letters in the Saturday or Sunday.
Thank you for your picture. It is a fine picture. You are a strong and
handsome man. I very much like this picture. It is wonderful, when a man
combines force and charm. It happens so seldom. Forgive me for my frank
words. But I always speak what I think. I think there is nothing bad in it.
You have pleasant appearance and it is wonderful.
You have written such a big letter (smile). But all the same I am very
glad. Why you write nothing about yourself? You do not like to tell about
yourselves? I hope you will tell more about yourself, like I do it, OK?
If you have no desire to speak with me, tell me about it straight.
You have not answered any my questions and I feel that you are
not interested in dialogue with me at all. Am I right? I hope no…
I do not know what waits for me in the future. Like any person I have
dreams, small and big. But when I reflect seriously, I understand that in
effect I dream to create my family. I dream to feel loved and necessary. I
dream to find the world of kindness and tenderness. I dream to get as
a token of love - stars in the sky, crimson sundown, and dew on a fragrant
grass. Probably it's too much. My basic goal - to find my happiness.
Everyone has different understanding of happiness. For me it is the
love embodied in my family. I want to have my family, with my beloved.
That small world which we will create will be my biggest happiness in my life.
Well, I will tell you more about my interests. I like various
types of music. I like to listen to classical music. I like Dire Straits.
But my favorite is Pink Floyd. They are not similar to anybody. It is a
great band. I like Robbie Williams, Madonna and many others. In America
there are a lot of great musicians. I like Russian musicians but likely
you do not know them. OK, movie! I like works of such Russian directors as
Konchalovsky, Mikhalkov. My favorite movies are "The Barber of Siberia"
and "Burnt by the Sun". It's masterpieces of the Russian cinema. The
American movie in Russia is considered like the greatest. I like American
movies very much. Brave Heart, the Sixth Sense, Rainman, One Flew Over the
Cuckoo's Nest, the Godfather, Groundhog Day, the Scent of a Woman, The Notebook,
Dragonfly. My favorite actors - Bruce Willis, Al Pacino, Kevin Costner,
Samuel L. Jackson, Uma Thurman, Tom Hanks, Kevin Spacey. My hobby, if it's
possible to tell so - the English language. I have loved English long ago,
when I studied at school. In Russia the program of training necessarily
includes foreign language, as a rule - English, German or French. I have
entered in group of the English language and I am happy that I made it. I
like your language very much. After school, I continued studying English
at the university. I like this language. I have been studying your
language for 18 years. Of course I speak English! I have been studying
English for 18 years! I only hope that you would love my Russian accent
that I have without any doubts. I want to know this language perfectly.
I know that now I admit mistakes, but I hope you won't angry. But my biggest
predilection that will be with me during all my life is the knitting! My
mom has taught me to knit in the childhood, and now I knit sweaters,
jackets and waistcoats for myself and for my friends. I like to knit very
much, and I like woolen clothes very much. Basically all warm sweaters
that I have, I have made by my own hands. I do not know if in your country
the knitting is popular, but here it is very popular. What else to tell
about me? I have no children and I was never married, though
of course I was in relationship and even thought that it will lead me to
the happy future. But now I haven't anything except of bad and painful
memoirs. Benny, how you would describe your character? I never tried
to describe features of my character to somebody. I live with a smile on my
face and with hope in my heart. I think I can consider myself an optimist.
And maybe it has helped me to dare to write you. I saw a great deal in my life,
and for 30 years I have passed through a lot of vital tests. And I know that
I do not need many things to be happy. All I need is a man, friend, soul-mate,
love. And my life has led me to the fact that now I seeks it in such way.
And I do not think it is bad. How do you think? I live honestly, and it
brings pleasure to me. I know that happiness not requires many things. Likely
the main thing that does not suffice me now is love. People without love
cannot be happy. And I speak not only about love between a man and a woman,
but also about love to a family for example. I have no family anymore and
it really oppresses me. I always recollect my family. Benny, you meet your
family often? I very much want to return that time when I had family.
Are you looking for the soul mate or just a friend? What are you looking for
in a soulmate, xxxxx, if you are looking for? I hope to receive your
letter soon. Sincerely and with the best regards.
Anastasiya.

Hi Bxxxx!
Today definitely good day - day of dialogue with my friend Benny! (Smile).
How it is wonderful to receive something that you really wait.
And in a case with me it of course your letter! Thank you!
Today was a difficult day, and dialogue with you removes my physical
weariness. The quantity of patients has considerably increased for some
last years. Here many people lives in the remote areas, impassable
districts. They lives even without an electricity in absolutely unsuitable
conditions for a life. And it certainly becomes the reason of a plenty of
diseases. The sad fact. Sometimes I want our new president Medvedev to live here
instead of the Kremlin, simply to understand what life is. Maybe in this
case all wars would end much faster? Forgive me that I tell you about our
problems, simply I write all what in my head. If you do not like to read
about it - simply tell me.
I will hope to receive your picture soon. I will be very grateful to you!
Unfortunately I could not open your file. When I tried to do it,
the computer answered, that cannot open such a file.
I only want to ask you to make your file small(size of 50-100 Kilobytes).
A file that you sent is too big and we spent a half hour to download it!
By the way Bxxxx I have asked you about your family in my last letter
because it really interestingly for me, as all my family has passed away.
My parents were military, mom was the military doctor, father was the
officer and we hadn't constant house because they very often got the
notice about new place of service, in places with the military conflict.
Therefore my childhood was not very cheerful. We lived in temporary
habitation outside of zone of conflict, therefore sometimes I did not see
my parents some weeks, and I was at home absolutely alone, being an
eight-year girl. Therefore since the early childhood I am able to cook,
sew, knit and do any heavy physical work. Now I absolutely agree that it's
correctly said that:"Thing that does not kill us makes us stronger".
Don't you agree Benny? When father got new place of service near to
Kazakhstan, I have gone to study in the good medical university in Tomsk.
I lived in student's hotel on distance of 600 kilometers from my parents.
But we had meeting some times in the year. Later my parents got new place
of service and have left to live in the Kalinin . And I saw my
parents only once in one year. At university for the first time in my life
I have found a true friend (it is Natalia) who is my best and reliable
friend till now. We have together passed through a hard time when have
been compelled to study and work in the evening and at night,- just to
support itself. After ending of university I was to get direction for
intern in Tomsk area, but I have received the letter from mom where she
informed that daddy has been killed in military collision. There is
nothing worse than to find out about death of the parent from the letter.
After that I began to live with mom because I was afraid to leave her lone
at such difficult period. One and a half year ago my mom has passed away.
She had a heart attack. I will not describe all pain and suffering which I had
at that time. Simply I want to tell that all ups and downs, all pleasures and
misfortunes that were in my life have led me to who I am now. The destiny
was not tender with me, but I am grateful to my destiny for my parents, I
am grateful to my destiny for my friend Natalia, because it really a gift of
destiny. And I hope Benny you are not angry with me that I talk to you
about it? It is my life and it is a part of me. And how you would learn me
more if I would not tell you it, really? And I as well would be glad to
learn more about you. Your life is very interesting to me. Are you
grateful to destiny for anything in your life Benny? How often you
become tired on your work? Do you like the nature, rivers and lakes, woods and
mountains? Are you religious person Benny? I will wait for your letter
so please write me soon! Sincerely and with the best regards.
Your friend (I hope) Anastasiya.

Hi Bxxxx!
Every day I wait for your response, but you do not write.
I do not know what to think. Maybe you have found some other woman, maybe
you do not want to talk to me anymore. But I sent you the letter and I thought
that if you do not want to talk to me, at least you will tell me about it.
But there is no any letter from you since I have written you; and I feel
sadness in my heart. I thought that I already will never feel sadness. But
you do not write to me, and it makes me sad. I sent you the letter where I
have told about my family, I have sent a pictures of me. I do not
receive the answer from you. Did you forget me or you did not receive my
letter? Please, tell me, and if you did not receive I can send it again!
I so wait for your letter but you do not write. If you do not want
to talk to me anymore, please, tell me. I think that to write a couple of
words is not very difficultly. And I will not disturb you any more. I miss
you and that's why it can seem that I have no patience. Sincerely and
with hope.
Anastasiya.


Hi, Benny!
Today I had so much work that I was afraid that I wouldn't
have time to get your letter. And I have to say that it is distressed me.
But now I have found free time and very glad. Thank you for your kind
letter. My last letter was sad. That's why today I will try not to write
about sad things. How there were your day? Now I am smiling and have a
good mood, because today we found out that in two days into Shahty will
be coming big exhibition of rare breeds of cats and dogs. It is great
news because at this exhibition there will be the best representatives of
rare breeds, collected from all of Russia. Everybody wants to visit this
exhibition because it will last only for several days. I like animals very
much. Can you imagine that I never was in a zoo? It is my dream.
But the last summer I visited an exhibition of fishes. This exhibition
is in Shahty and there many various fishes. All fishes such beautiful.
Have you ever been in zoo? We have here several small menageries, but I dream
to see giraffes and rhinoceroses, hippopotamuses and bears. I never saw
tigers and elephants in real life. Have you ever seen a tiger or a bear?
The biggest animal I saw in my life is a horse. I like horses very much
and think that these are the most beautiful animals in the planet. As
matter of fact I have always dreamt to have some pets. Unfortunately a
horse hardly would be placed in my apartment (smile). I dreamt to have cat
or dog. But when I think that a little puppy will wait for me home, alone,
I feel pity. That's why I don't have pets. Two years ago in Novoshahtinsk
I visited a wax museum. It was very interesting. In this museum are collected
sculptures of many well-known people.
As I already wrote in my first letter, my birthday is February, 01, 1978.
You have written a wonderful poem in your letter. It was very beautiful,
wonderful words. May be it even a song and I can only imagine how these
words would be fine in a combination with music. Thank you!
What else to tell about myself? I always very much get tired on work.
And though my work is not heavy physical work but like any doctor, I am in
constant concentration and an internal moral strenuousness, because the
health of people depends on my attention. I am always waiting weekends
with impatience. Weekends are the only one possibility for me to get a
rest and to get new forces. Weekends I spend variously. Sometimes I want
simply to rest in my apartment. I live alone in my apartment. I have the
one-room apartment with a toilet and kitchen. I like my apartment - small
and cozy. On weekends I always clean apartment properly. I like purity.
And though I always try to keep clean my apartment, all the same, always
in the weekends I find what work to make in an apartment. But when I want
really to relax I listen to music or read books. I like to read books
especially historical novels about ancient Russia or other countries. I
like to spend time with my female friends. I have two best lady friends.
When we meet, the air is filling with laughter. We like to walk and to
talk; we go to cinema and walk in the park. If you want I can tell you
about my friends. I like very much to spend time in nature in the open
air. I like the sea. I live not very far away from the sea, but should
tell that I have been there very seldom. I like woods, mountains, lakes
and the rivers more. Camping in Russia is very popular. I adore to go to
the forest and to live in a tent though now I have such opportunity
seldom. I like to look at night illumination and cars headlights. I like
very much to look at the stars. In August our sky abound with stars. It is
incredible beautifully. I like to cook on the fire. There is nothing more
wonderful than when the fragrances of forest, mountain rivers and smoke
mix together in the air. I am romantic undoubtedly. I really like to cook.
I know that I do it well, because I started cooking from childhood. My
mother taught me many things including cooking. She said: "Lady who can
cook well doesn't have disadvantages and demerits, because tasty food is a
way to the man's heart (smile). May be she was right. We have In Russia
many national dishes, such as an okroshka, uha, borsch, golubtsy. I am not
sure if you know such dishes. These are Russian national dishes. Also I
like dishes of Caucasian Georgia. What dishes do you prefer Benny?
Looking back at your life would you like to change something? I have to
finish. I hope my letter was not stodgy and uninteresting. I will wait for
your letter with impatience. I wish you peace and kindness.
Anastasiya.

Hi, my dear friend Benny! I hope you not mind that I say so.
Thank you for your letter. Day by day I feel more need in getting your
letter. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. I
should say that when I have good mood I hear gratitude from my patients
much more often (smile). Therefore, now the health of a Russian women
depend on your letters (smile again).
You can call me Nastya - it is how my friends call me.
But You can name me as you want. It is pleasant for me.
You find such beautiful names, anybody so did not name me never.
Your offer is very flattering for me, and I feel like a most especial
woman. But how I can answer right now? I am a simple woman as well, but I
concern to a question of a marriage seriously. I feel that we can have the
future, but I want to learn you more. And when my heart will tell me that
I should meet you, I will meet you. And I will be happy to hear your offer
of a hand and heart, being face to face. Unless you do not think that it
is better, than to write offer in the letter? May be sometime soon we will
meet, and after meeting I will be happy to find out what feelings you have
in your heart, and I will be happy to tell about my feelings during that
moment. But now we have a chance to learn each other. And I am happy to
use this chance. Let's build together the road to the future!
To my regret I could not visit an exhibition. Last days was a
lot of work and I could not go to Shahty. But it not death (smile).
By the way, when I came to work today, my mood was bad, because my friend
Natalia fell ill and now she is in the hospital. The saddest thing is that
she has birthday today. She is 30 years old today. Unfortunately she will
spend her birthday in the hospital. But I have already talked with a
doctor and I will be allowed to spend evening in her chamber. In the
evening I will bake a cake, I will buy balloons and go to the hospital. I
hope very much that she will have good mood on her birthday. She is my
best friend. By the way, she works with me in the clinic.
Natalia the doctor the otolaryngologist in our clinic. As a matter of
fact I have only two real friends - Natalia and Olesya. Natalia is a lady who
is in the hospital. Olesya is our friend already for several years. Natalia
and I are like sisters. We like to take a walk. Usually we walk in the
park. But also we like to spend time in Natalia vegetable garden. She lives
in an old wooden house. I don't know if you have seen such houses. It is
the houses which were built before the Second World War, in the fortieth
years. These are very old houses which don't have bath and running water.
So people have to take water outside in the well. In modern world such
conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so. We like to spend
time in Natalia vegetable garden. There she grows the potato, tomatoes and
cucumbers not to buy them in the market. Every winter Natalia, Olesya and I
together build a big Snowman in her vegetable garden, using a big snow
spheres. We put carrot instead of nose, and potatoes instead of eyes. It
is very funny. All neighbor's children came to see it. By the way, if we
want to fool about, we put carrots not only instead of a nose but also
below..... (hint and smile) First time we made such Snowman 10 years ago.
Since that time we do it every year. It is a tradition for us. We poured
it with water to cover with ice. So it could stand for the whole winter.
I like Kalinin. Almost all people in our village know each other.
We have little buildings - maximum 2 floors. Natalia says that she wants to
live in a big city. I don't know where is better. Big city is a big
traffic, fast rhythm of life, garlands of fires, lightning's of shop
windows, high buildings, fountains, cinemas, parks, attractions, theatres.
It is wonderful, of course I like it. But our village is a fresh air, a
lot of trees and birds, silent and comfortable, cozy, quiet place, no
hubris and vanity inherent for big cities. We have a lot of small and
large lakes and rivers. The places are very beautiful. If there was no
criminality, it would be paradise. But alas, the criminal in small cities,
as well as in the big cities is an integral part our life. Unfortunately
the crime in Russia is on a very high level. But I don't want to tell
about sad things. Several times, Natalia, Olesya and I went to the festival
of bard song. This is a place on the coast of the river where a lot of
people come from all country. At night the coast is covered with thousand
fires lights. The scene is a huge raft having the form of a guitar and
established right on water and everybody who wants to sing together with
famous bard singers, goes on this raft and starts to sing. And all
thousands people become silent and listen to this singer even if he is
absolutely unknown. It is the unique festival. I have to finish my letter.
I don't want but I have to do it. Today when I will come to Natalia we will
talk about you. She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her. I
wanted to ask you what makes you happy Benny? What was the best gift
from a woman you got? Sincerely your, and with best wishes.
Anastasiya.

P.S. I have put a picture of a Snowman, but only the top part.
I think you can understand, that other part indecent. Smile

Hi Benny!
At once I want to tell that Natalia sends you her greetings. I was in
hospital and we have spent her birthday very well. I wanted to bake a
small cake, but it has turned out on the contrary. The cake was huge. It
weighed two kg. When I have brought it to hospital, we have divided this
into set of pieces; and all doctors and some patients that were in this
small branch are drank tea and ate a pie together with us and everyone was
glad and happy. I have brought a lot of balloons. She was very glad and
grateful to me. The day is wonderful today and the weather is good. The
sun is shining all the day. To add to all this I have got your letter and
my happiness doesn't have limits. So what about your weather? May be today
after work I will take a walk. I like to walk along the street and to
breathe the fresh air, especially when the weather is warm, even in the
winter. As a matter of fact I don't want to go home. At home is very
boringly and lonesomely. Sometimes I don't notice it, but sometimes when
I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with
anybody, to have fun. But my apartment is empty and I have to be in full
loneliness. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit down into the armchair
and look at the window. And when the silence deafens me, when I hear movement
of my eyelashes, at that moment the hoop of loneliness compresses my heart.
I can listen to music or read a book. I can go to my friends. But in some
moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved
person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning,
to talk about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk
and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only
for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But I think enough about it.
I have no opportunity to use the Internet. I cannot visit your
website, unfortunately. I have an opportunity simply to receive your
letters and to send you mine.
Hi Benny, again. I began writing the letter in the morning. Now
already 5 p.m. Can you imagine? Today was heavy working day. My working
day comes to an end soon. But, my assistant has brought here her small son,
and she has asked me to look after him because she should leave urgently
for some hours. The boy knows me very well. He already some times remained
with me and spent time. As our clinic works till 22.00, we can be here
up to the end of work day. His mom, my assistant, works in our clinic only a few
months and she has no friends or relatives here. That's why I already some times
helped her. Her son is amusing boy. He told to me that tomorrow he with mom should
go to dentist to treat his ill tooth. I asked him: What do you dream about?
He answered that he dreams to become a grownup because grownups don't have
problems with teeth. It was so funny. I often recollect childhood.
I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child
I completely believed that grownups don't have problems at all. I dreamt
in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an
illusive world. We live in a real life, so we should not sink into the
world of dreams and phantasies for a long time. When a dream becomes
obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Our dreams
come true not always. It happens that you use all energy, all aspiration
to make dream come true. But irrespective of how strenuously you try, not
everything in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does
not come true, dream ceases to be the star, that was for you a lighthouse
in the ocean of the life. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live
without dreams and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with
sense. Our dreams force us to think, analyze, choose and come to a
conclusion. The Faith and Hope are eternal satellites of our lifes. And
regardless of what waits you at the end, we remember joy of the victories
better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. Don't you agree?
I'm surprised that I write all this to you. I have never had a man, with whom
I felt conveniently in sharing my thoughts. But now I have found you, and
I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something
superfluous forgive me please. Can I ask some small questions? Do you like
to sleep, or get up early in the morning? Do you like to kiss? (smile)
Are you a good kisser? (smile) Do you like when your friends come to your home
or you prefer to go to friends. I adore when Natalia or Olesya come to my
apartment. What clothes do you like to see in a lady? I will wait for your
letter with impatience.
Anastasiya.

Hi, Benny.
I am very glad that you have written me. Thank you very much.
You cannot imagine how much I wait for messages from you! Your letters became
a part of my days! Now in my thoughts always only one question - "When I will get
an opportunity to read your letter and to write my letter?"... And when I hear a
favorite phrase: "Anastasiya, you can jump, you has received the letter!"
(A lady who works with a computer says exactly this phrase) I really become
joyful very much and start to smile involuntarily. Therefore thank you!!!
Today is a good day and to clinic I have come already with good mood.
Today at night there was a little rain. In the morning I have come out
to the street to jog and I have seen that all footpaths and roads
completely are filled with water . But I like such a weather. I like any
weather. Many people do not notice beauty that surrounded them. In my soul
such a weather wakens the big energy and fine mood. I like all seasons.
I like autumn. Yellow leaves, gold trees. It is so wonderful to walk in the
park and to listen to how leaves rustle under feet; to see the clouds that
float in the sky, to see birds departing to the warm lands. And at night
the sky begins to cry. The rain knocks on windows and roofs. A lightning
illuminates for shares of second the empty streets. It is wonderful. How
it would be wonderful in such a weather to appear with beloved in a small
room with a warm fireplace; weak light and singing of a cricket. How you
think Benny? What can be finer than romantic evening in rainy day? I at
all do not know what season I like more. Russian winter is delightful. The
all world around is white. And falls of snow bewitches, especially in the
evening. When you see flows of light from a window, and on a background of
black sky small snowflakes are similar to stars. And if for a long time
you look at the sky, then it seems that you are flying through these
wonderful snowflakes towards something unknown. I like spring. The world
as though is born again. Air is filled with freshness. All troubles and
failures thaws together with snow. The sounds of the baby birds chirping
for the first time. Summer is a fine mood, the desire to learn the world,
to have a rest and enjoy life. I feel that I rambling on.
Thanks for your anxiety about Natalia. She has female disease. It is
not dangerous, but demanded to place her in hospital to take small survey.
Now doctors have found out everything and probably tomorrow or the day
after tomorrow she will already leave hospital, but will be compelled to
spend still some days home to provide a rest. Thank you for new
pictures. I already spoke, that you are a handsome man. Your new
picture confirms my words. You really very charming and attractive a
man and to look at you is very pleasantly.
But Benny! The size of your picture was extremely big! And our
service mail unloaded during two hours. Because of it the boss of mine has
become angry. Can you make pictures of small volume? Forgive me, but I had a
problem because of the size of your picture. Your letter was 7 Mbytes!
It is too much for our system of the Internet. Our Internet has very low speed
and capacity. Therefore your letter unloaded for some hours. I only want
to ask you to make your pictures small(size of 50-100 Kilobytes).
Thank you for your fine words. Thanks for your sincere and gentle words.
Nobody spoke with me so gently, cautiously and sincerely before! Your thoughts
and feelings are so beautiful and romantic. And I see me in your thoughts and it
force me to feel that I especial lady. Your letters and your thoughts bring pleasure
at my day and give calm to my soul. I think of you and I feel warmth in my heart.
I really want to tell you what I feel. I get a great pleasure when you write to me.
Your letters and your thoughts bring pleasure at my day and give calm to my soul.
I think of you and I feel warmth in heart. You have such kind heart. Something
inside me prompted me that you very sincere and true a man. It so is important
for me. I always think about you and it is pleasant to me. I do not know where I go.
But I am not afraid of it. Nobody knows what waits for us in the future, in one hour,
or tomorrow, or in 20 years. I simply go there where directs me my heart.
I'm listening what my heart says to me. When will come time to do the choice,
to choose road, my heart again will tell me what I have to do now. So was always
in my life. And now my heart is overflow with unusual feelings, and I do not know
how to describe what I feel. I do not feel that between us thousand kilometers.
I constantly think of you. I never feel such warmth in my heart.
Oh yes! I like to kiss! (I want to intrigue you! I could?) I think that
a kiss it in general the most romantic and sensual way of expression of
the love, tenderness and desire. People allow to each other to learn a
internal world and taste of each other; people exchange breath. It is
very sensual moment and of course it brings pleasure to any person.
Kiss it's display of feelings. By means of a kiss is possible to tell very
much. It is very important part of relationship. Any displays of feelings,
kiss or embrace are very important. It is the basic factor of relationship.
I think the more, the better. I like to be kissed in a neck! It is my magic
place! Also shoulders, hands, a stomach and of course lips!!!!!
I like to be affectionate. It is a part of my character. I like to give tenderness
and I like to get the tenderness. Therefore I hate a rage and roughness.
I like to express feelings in all allowable ways. And I think that it's wonderfully.
By the way, I jog for many years. I really have good health because
I always try to support my figure and I jog every morning. I try to spend
time in the air as much as possible. I have no car and I use transport
extremely seldom. I get contrast shower - alternation of a stream of cold
and hot water. I since the childhood lived in conditions of cold winter
and damp autumn. Such climate is toughening health very well. I do not
smoke and I do not drink alcoholic drinks. I really love a healthy way
of life. And I am proud of it. I love sports very much. Though should admit
that I never played golf, football, baseball and basketball, never boxed.
But I could surprise you, if I had opportunity to compete with you in beach
volleyball. By the way, when I studied at university, I visited section
of swimming and have reached good results. Some times I participated in swim
competitions. Swimming - till now my favorite kind of sports.
Benny, I send my pictures. I hope you will like it.
I for a long time thought and have decided to send a picture - only for you...
So, this picture really only for you! I hope you understand...
Benny, I have to finish.With the best regards and with thoughts of you.
Anastasiya.

Hi, Benny!
How is your mood? I hope that up to my letter your mood was fine, but after
my letter your mood became superfine (smile) Likely I am too
self-confident. But I am happy again because I have again received your
letter. I so waited for this minute,- when I can write to you. Our
friendship became the important part of my life, and I hope that in your
life as well. Sometimes I understand that the thread that connects me with
you now is not most strong. But I do not want this thread to be torn.
Right now I sit and I smile simply because I am glad that again I can to
share with you my thoughts. Sometimes I so want you to see my smile during
the similar moment because I think it is the most sincere smile! But
sometimes my smile leaves me because I know that now the only thing that
connects us is our thoughts, that we send to each other,- thoughts,
transformed into a letters that are not able to show all depth of
thoughts. But at the same time I understand that nobody knows what waits
for us in the future. I hope my words do not offend you and maybe you even
think just as I...
Thank you for a wonderful song. I was made laugh very much with a
picture of a cat and your comments on it. You are very funny man and I like it!
Thanks for all your words. I am very glad that you have expressed to
me your opinion. It is pleasant for me to realize that I have a friend - a
true man. I really do not understand how people can be very angry if they
love each other. I do not remember when at last time I became angry. I do
not like to be angry and I do not like to quarrel. I know absolutely
precisely that any disagreements can be solved with a smile on the face. I
try never to raise a voice. To force me to cry easier than to make me mad.
I like to conciliate people and when my friends in the quarrel, I always
act as conciliator. When I am upset, it can be understood on my eyes.
Natalia says that when I am upset, I have such sad eyes that after
looking at me she wants to cry. Probably it is the truth because when I am
upset, everyone notices it. I become silent and imperceptible. I as always
talk with people, I smile, but all the same everyone see that something
wrong with me. To carry quarrel into the bed or to leave problem on
tomorrow 's day is wrong. I never would do that. I never can be in a
disagreement more than several minutes. I feel very much not comfortably
if I am in a disagreement. Therefore I always try to reconcile at once.
If people love each other and respect feelings and interests of each other,
I am sure that serious disagreements cannot be the case. I always take
into account an opinion of other people; therefore I very seldom have
disagreements with somebody. I respect any mind. And I am sure that
any quarrel can be discussed simply in quiet conversation. It is enough
to express your opinion and attentively and respectfully to listen to opinion
of your beloved. And the decision will come. And what can be more pleasant
than a soft kiss after a short disagreement? Really?
Tomorrow difficult day waits for me. Probably tomorrow and
the day after tomorrow I will work outside of clinic.
We call it - "the ride working day". It is difficult day. At
this day several doctors and specialists of our clinic are going on the
special medical bus to various remote small settlements, small villages in
a thicket of the forest. These are poor villages which are located far
away from the big cities and settlements. In these villages there are no
doctors and clinics and people cannot visit clinic at any moment. In such
villages there is always a lot of people who need the doctor but cannot
reach clinic by self. Often it is a people who are not able to live
without help of other people, - basically are small children or old and
weak feeble people. We go in these villages on the bus with all necessary
equipment. People in these villages love us and wait more than anything.
But it is really the hard work if to take into account that we are going
there at 6 am, and we come back sometimes even after 10 pm! But I will wait
your letter because our friendship gives force to me, and our dialogue
is a rest for my soul!
My dear friend Benny! I have to go! Sincerely and with thoughts about you.
Anastasiya.

P.S. I do not remember, I spoke you that I enjoy fishing.
These pictures are taken 5 years ago when my father still was alive.
My father took a boat from friend and we fishing. I always
recollect my father. By the way the fish in a picture is a pike.

Hi my dear Benny!
Today is a fine day. Already in the morning I knew that I today
I will get an opportunity to write to you. And all the rest become
unimportant for me. Today I really haven't opportunity to write much.
Please forgive me. But I have enough time to tell to you that I
thought of you and waited when I will get opportunity to write you.
Thank you for a delightful poems and songs. It was very much - very
much beautiful. I am admired. You are a first man in my life who
devotes to me a poem. You have touched my heart. You have penetrated
into depth of my soul. I have heard in news about hurricane which
damaged some cities. I am so sorry. I hope hurricane have not brought
misery and grief into your life. I pray that you are safe.
And I have time to tell the main thing. I do not know why, but today
I have woken up earlier than usually. I could not fall asleep again.
I simply sat near window and looked at the sky. Suddenly, a small birdie
appeared on my window. It was very beautiful birdie. This birdie looked
at me, and started to twitter. It was so unusually and beautifully. It was
a beautiful song. I looked at this small birdie and thought, that you
Benny now somewhere far away; maybe you sleep and see me in your
sleep-dream. And I so wanted you to see this small birdie and to hear her
delightful song. And I have whispered: "Fly off, my little birdie,
fly to my friend Benny, and tell to him that one girl, that is so far away,
thinks of him and sends to him this song. And at this moment the birdie
has flinched and flew away as if this birdie has heard my words!
And I have thought, if today you Benny will see a small birdie
singing beautiful song, - be sure that it is my birdie I sent to you!
Forgive me, but I have to go. I want to send you my kiss if you do not mind.
I already wrote to you, that Natalia lives in an old wooden house, which
do not have bath and running water. But Natalia has Russian Sauna.
These pictures are taken in Natalia's Sauna.
Your Anastasiya.

Hi, my far, but dear friend Benny.
Many thanks for your letter. It was the long-awaited letter. I am really
madly glad to receive your letter. I am really glad that I have found you.
I want to tell you today so much.
Today I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want
to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying
something wrong may do that. I always speak directly from my heart but
sometimes, words must be chosen carefully. I feel somewhat lost when
I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul,
I feel contentment and joy when I think of you. I have never done this in
my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), but
I am more than willing to learn whatever is need to succeed, if it is your
desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends,
which trust and share with each other everything that they feel.
I don't know if my word and thoughts make sense to you; and for me so hard
to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe
in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to be ready for
meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life in loving, to
better value him, respect him and cherish the love that he would give me;
only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are
not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my
thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I wish to know you on
the more intimate level, I would like you to share your true dreams, your
hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with
you on a level that goes way beyond simply friendship. Please don't think
that I am fool for thinking these things, I believe that to succeed in
anything, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you.
Could you seriously close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream
of what a life we could share, what it would be like,- the fun of learning
each other. I really believe that dreams really come true for the people
that dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them enough
hard, dreams could become in reality. Here, where I was raised, the gift
of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage
or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people
can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words.
I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you,
I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say,
and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted
to share with you. Benny, I want to tell that you are very beautiful
for me. I mean the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world.
It is a type of beauty that is very special and rare. Most men have only
appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is.
This is what for me is the most important and significant in all limits
of my character, my soul and my consciousness. I think that you are truly
handsome, in the sence of what beauty should be. I want to reduce essence
of my entire letter only to one thought. I don't know if I could clearly
explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want
to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy
our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you
suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough
for simple friendship. It's the way I feel. I'll look forward to your
reply as always with anticipation and impatience....
I hope that your reply will not have of a harsh nature, and I look forward
of its arrival. With tenderness, Your Anastasiya.

Hi Benny!
Your letter means so much for me. Thank you. I so waited your letter and
so wanted to find out what you will tell me.
Thanks for your words and thanks for your feelings. Your words have
touched my heart and have penetrated into depth of my soul. Thanks for your
sincerity and tenderness. And thank you for your feelings! I never thought that
in the world there is a man who can make me feel like flower only by means
of words. Thank you that you have brought spring into my heart!
Benny, today I write to you with special worry but as well with
pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you
today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter
I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried to not show it,
I think you have noticed it. Benny, I was sad because the boss informed
me that approximately in three weeks the accounting department will be closed
for full re-equipment and repair. And when he have told me it, I thought
my heart will stop, because when it will take place, I will not be able
to communicate with you during several months! And it has brought infinite
sadness into my heart. But after my boss informed me about close of
accounting department, the accounting department informed me that approximately in
three weeks I will get my vacation! When I thought that I can lose you for
some months, inside my soul I at once have felt that I can't simply accept
it. And I have felt that together with sadness in my heart has appeared
an other feeling - feeling of confidence, desire to make new steps instead
of simply waiting for something. I have understood that our relations are
important for me much more than I thought. And it so wonderfully. I had no
vacation for two years. And now I will have vacation. But a thoughts that
I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and
to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that
I can't endure. I talked with Natalia and she has asked me what I think to do.
And when she has asked me it, I have understood that inside my soul I already
know the answer to this question. And I have told that I do not want to spend
such a long-awaited vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought that
I will not talk to you Benny during of month or two. And I have told
that I want to meet you Benny! I have told her that I want to spend
my vacation with you Benny! I can come to you, and we can spend time
together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I will tell you
about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see me
or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Natalia have told, that
you Benny and I are such a good friends, our relations are built on
sincerity, therefore Benny will be happy to spend time with me. And I
really think that it would be delightfully. So, what you will say, Benny,
if I will offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to spend
with me several days? I cannot imagine at all how it would be wonderful.
You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life.
We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands, tell
each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars in the
night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply sit
on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together...
I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of again
be lonely without you and our friendship. I simply want to meet you.
I already knew and I have been told earlier, but I have found out again
all I need to do to come to your country. I already have the passport. And
I will avoid usual procedure of visa's approval. Being the doctor, I can
ask the visa on behalf of our Ministry of Health, because if the applicant
have good official support from official bodies, if the applicant have
official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference,
seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some months the
decision of the commission, and will remove all problems connected with
necessity to prove that the purpose of travel is not emigration. Being the
doctor I will have support and guarantees from Ministry of Health of
Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor. Of course
I must visit improbable quantity of the departments, to collect improbable
quantity of documents, to find as many as possibly of other official legal
persons, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if
I will quickly collect all necessary documents, I will get the visa in one
or two weeks! So I have filed an application for the visa, Benny, with
happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with me!
I do not ask you about anything. I will use my monetary savings and I will
make everything by self. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden.
Would you be happy to spend some days with me soon, Benny? Anyway, we
must meet. It is possible to wait eternally. But I believe that I will get
my vacation not accidentally; and I believe that the accounting department will be
closed at the same time not accidentally as well. It is not coincidence!
It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take new step. Maybe
such opportunity will not be repeated again. I so long waited my vacation
and I want my vacation to be especial. What can be better than a meeting of
two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank destiny
that I have got such an opportunity,- an opportunity to meet my dear friend,
the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to enjoy
time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the
beginning of something new in our lifes and in our relations. And I am really
happy to get a vacation because it is time which I can spend in any way I want,
and I want to spend this vacation with you Benny! So what will you tell?
Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me?
Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport?
I will wait for your answer with pleasure. Your sincere Anastasiya

Hi my Benny!
I waited for your letter with fear and with pleasure at the same time!
And I am very happy to receive your letter! I am ready to jump and dance,
laugh and sing songs! And the reason - you Benny! Thank you for your
letter and your thoughts.
I am so happy that we will meet. Now I have the ocean of emotions and I at all
do not know what to say. I am worried very much. I very much hope that we can
perfectly spend time together. I only am afraid, that if we will meet, I will asks
so many questions and to chatter unceasingly, that you soon will escape from me.
I get my vacation once a year. My vacation will begin approximately
about September, 30. At this time I can arrive to you. But unfortunately the
schedule of my vacation is not flexible. Therefore I hope you will be glad
to meet me at this time. If you have not enough time, I will be happy all the same.
I will be happy in any case. It is better to wait when you will come from work,
than to sit in my apartment and to know that nobody will come!!!
Duration of my vacation is 24 workdays. But quantity of days which I can
spent with you depends on when I will get my vacation and when I will
order the ticket. How many days you want to be with me?
I have submitted the visa application. It will take about one or two week I think.
Complexity of approval of the visa will be reduced to a minimum as I will have
petitions and characteristics from a work place, from respected organizations
and legal persons; guarantee documents and a various sort of the
information and inquiry, which will give to commissions the confidence,
that my intentions is not emigration. I will get the petition and a testimonial
from Ministry of Health of Russian Federation! It is a respected structure
and any person working in the field of medicine is under care of the Ministry.
Except of that I will pay for preparation for interview with the commission.
Every day I think - what my friend Benny will tell me today, what mood
he will have today? And as soon as I get free minute, I rush to accounting department
to find out if you have written to me or not. And when I receive your
letter, I start to smile from ear to ear anticipating the best time of
my day - time when I read your letter and when I write to you the all my
thoughts. These are the most important minutes of my day. And these
minutes I don't hear anything and I don't see anything except of lines and
paragraphs which in my mind will be transformed into small movie, movie
about you, my dear Benny. And you cannot imagine at all how it
wonderfully! Sometimes I think, what would be if I have not found the
boldness in myself to write you? What would be if I didn't believe that
I can find a man in such a way? I always want to think that I the courageous
woman, but I feel that actually it is not so. I am ready to give my life
for the sake of person who are close and dear for me, I am ready to donate
my well-being for the sake of well-being of other person but when I think
of myself, I often become timid and all my boldness disperses like the
fire's smoke. I am often afraid to make something, to take some step
simply because of fear that it will be an incorrect step. I am often
afraid to ask people about anything simply because of fear to get the
negative answer. Not always, but it happens. What would happen, if you
have not answered my first letter? Nothing would happen! And grey
monotonous days again would lie on a way of my life by infinite
impenetrable veil. Do you want to know what I did today? First off, I
should tell that I slept with a smile on my face! At least when I have
woken up and have looked at the mirror, I have noticed that I smile! Then,
I cleaned a teeth and I had smile! Then, I jog and I smiled as if actually
I watched funny movie. Then, I have cooked a breakfast and drank a coffee
with a smile on my face! Then, I have come to clinic, and I could not hide
my smile. I was ready to laugh and I at all had no desire to work! It is
a very bad symptom for the doctor! (Smile). Everything around have seemed
to me a beautiful and wonderful. And even the severe boss, when have seen
that I look at him and I smile, he began to survey himself attentively
and even have come near to the mirror to see if anything wrong! He has thought
that something wrong with his clothes! All the day I work with smile
on my face! Natalia looks at me and smiles as well. Of course she understands
the reason, and it makes her happy as well! And when time of sleep will come,
I will lie in my bed with the same smile on my face! And if you till now
have not understood why I smile, I will tell you! I smile because I think
of you, Benny! And it brings joy! I am so happy that I have in my life
such a man as you! Thank you that you are in my life! I have to go. Now
I will not have a lot of time after work because after work I will have
one more working day! (Smile). You may ask what I mean? The preparation for
my trip! You cannot imagine at all how many deals I must do for our meeting!
I even have asked the boss to reduce my working day or to allow me to take
some hours off in the middle of day to make some things, because after 5 pm
not all departments works! Of course now I should work in the days off
to have more of free time at week-days. But thoughts about our meeting
give me force and energy! I am sure that everything will be perfectly!
I will wait your letter! Please, write me because I need your letters
and support more than ever!
Your Anastasiya!

Hi My Benny!
Thank you for your letter. You became the most dazzling moment of my day!
How I wish you saw how Natalia is happy that we will meet! She is sure that
our meeting will make us happy. It is simply impossible to talk to her
now! (Smile). She has now only one theme for conversation - you Benny!
She constantly asks about you, asks - what I will do together with you,
she asks - what I will do at the airport, she asks - what I will cook
for you. She asks how I am going to impress you, to intrigue! She even
asks how I will tempt you! (Smile). She say that I do everything correctly
and I should not be afraid of anything at all. To conquer the road can
only one who goes on this road. Natalia is very glad that I have found you,
and she sends you her friendly greetings and a wishes of
happy expectation of me! (Smile). Thanks for a beautiful poem. You
know how to touch heart of lady. Your words force my heart to tremble.
Thank you for your tenderness and kindness. My dear, I can tell exact
date of my trip only when I will get the visa. I cannot tell to you
right now. I still do not know an exact date of beginning of my
vacation. I said to you approximate date, but anyhow I will plan my
travel beforehand and when I will know exact dates, I will inform to you.
Thank you for all your preparations. In my heart I have never-ending
gratitude to you for all what you do for me! I have never felt like
long-awaited woman. Nobody ever waited for me as you do.
I do not know what exactly I want to see and what I want to make.
I want to see all what I can to see and I want to make all what I can to
make. But only together with you. I very much want to cook for you a
magnificent dinner. You will not see what I cook. You will feel aroma and
to wait when I will t